What about him? Haha Just kidding. Um hmm, as I look back I feel like I was more in lust. Because one, I moved on fast. I have been truthful with myself &I know what I deserve &I got lucky that a caring guy came around so quickly. Two, I was more into it than him. He had me wait around for him ALOT &that was never fair to me. I will always care about his well being &I truely hope everything works out for him &he is happy. He will always be my bestfriend. Whether he wants to be nice or not whatever, I just cant help but always care about him in a friendly way. I have since day one. We had a best friend kind of “love”. But the things he put me through and made me feel was NOT love. I don’t care what he or anyone says. We didn’t know what love was, we were infatuated and our judgment was clearly fogged. I still have yet to figure what true love is. True love does not fade or leave. Or make you feel invisible, broken, wanting to die. From now on I hope him the best. We have amazing chemistry &I would love to continue a friendship, but of course I dont think he has the heart to do so.

So, what about Eric, it was an amazing roller coaster ride haha that needed to end. We are both better off, he has college,work,soccer, &family things to focus on. &I know what I deserve and it is not fair to me to stay stuck on him. I have my own to do’s as well to focus on. We just went our seperate ways prob in the most unhealthy way but I think we both can agree it needs to be this way. I’m not bitter about it &I hope he isn’t either. I will never regret what we had. Was it true love like we thought, I dont think so. But I definitely did have some of the best times of my entire life with him &that will never change even if we have :) He taught me alot about myself and life &I thank him everyday (mentally of course) haha. He taught me how to make the most out of life. He taught me how to not be so quiet. He taught me how to stand up for myself. He taught me to follow my dreams. He taught me how to stay above the influence. He taught me to always be positive. I cherish everything I have learned. It was meant to happen, &it was meant to end.

His name is Kyle :) Anddd he is everything I have ever asked for, even the things I wasn’t even looking for in a guy, yet I’ve realized how much I have shortened myself in the past. He is perfection. He loves my family, I love his. He has these qualities I never even knew I needed in a guy. He is older. He is mature. He is everything I need. He’s the cutest guy I have ever dated hands down. I don’t know how I got so lucky but damn I am not screwing this one up. He is model status, not even exaggerating he literally was a model 2years ago haha. If you tumblr sloots don’t believe me a picture is on its way soon, he keeps saying he wants one of us <3 I seriously don’t know why I got so lucky, but I am the happiest girl. He’s so adorable he’s like that cute guy in all these movies I’ve watched dreaming I’d have a guy like that one day.. he makes silly faces at me to make me giggle, he compliments me on things that not everyone notices like my slight dimples or the smirks I make. He holds me in the most protective way &I can’t help but let him take care of me. He even calls me his princess and I melt everydamn time. We haven’t made it official yet cause it hasn’t been long at all but we’ve got sooo close soo soon &it definitely means something, call me crazy.. Okay I’m done talking about him… for now. hahaha